And like the marriage, there have been good times but also very, very bleak ones. I left work today in sheer despair unable to cope with overwhelming sadness and went to my GP to get anti depressants. I sometimes wonder, what might have changed back in that marriage had I been able to get myself happier. There are so many people that have a story to tell.. Some worse than others..
It makes others sad or feel there situation is okay compared to mine.. In saying this The only advice I can give I have solace in prayer and this somehow gets me through.. Good luck and God bless. Sharing helps others know they are not alone in their situation. Your story us worth telling.
I hate my life!! I have no friends nobody to talk to or anything. I have a boyfriend but our relationship sucks so bad. What am I suppose to do?? I use to be so happy and now I feel like crap all the time. Where did the old me go? Yeah I hate my life too. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Reading, for example, writing? These can all be a positive outlet and a source of distraction. What do you think about mostly?
Hopefully one day you can share your experience with someone in your current position and help them to see that they too can create their own light at the end of the tunnel.
Kick that negative inner voice to the curb and take hold of your future!!! I dont know if i hate my life or my mother. Basically i was pushing him out my life because of her. To get extremely personal, ive turned to having sex with alot of boys because i didnt have love AT ALL growing up. Me and my only sister was separated when i was 11 so i had no one to look up to. I really needed to vent. I think that some of your dad giving up was actually his fault.
My mother is also quite bitter, and verbally abusive. How old are you? You sound young. You may not have to live in your car. I feel for you. I used to be fun and have a lot of friends but not anymore.
I grew up as a very serious child. My parents had a very tumultuous relationship, and expressed their dislike for one another as long as I can remember… Dad wanted a partner to help him in his business and understand him; Mom wanted someone to take care of her, let her get dressed up, and take her out on the town. From the time I was eight years old, I worked with my father after school in his meat market.
I was the only one of my three sisters to do so. My mother never worked outside the house. My father relied on me to help him with his accounts payable, wait on customers, and even do meat cutting after school. This transferred to the home, where I started to help with the finances. This was expected of me. Now, I am an educator myself, and at 52, I am caring evenings for my 88 and year-old parents. I feel great resentment that I am responsible for so much, and even provide a good deal for them financially, with all the stress they continually put me through.
My mother only approves of me when I do whatever she wants and dotes on her. Today, he threw down his metal cane in frustration. I am so filled with hurt and resentment.
I feel so alone!! I also do all the paperwork for my parents and my disabled brother. He has been in and out of the psychiatric hospital numerous times, suffering from OCD which is exascerbated by all the fighting between my parents. I am so hurt now at age 52 about all of this. I keep wondering how my life would have been different if I would have been a bit selfish and actually lived a childhood. I am prone to depression and anxiety. I am burnt out and burdened, and I hate my life.
Hi Anna, Thank you for sharing your story. I think you are an amazing person to be so caring of your family. Maybe someone else could take over the care of your parents. Show them how amazing life is. I wish you all the happiness in the world. My husband is so malicious and will say or do anything to get his way, especially if he can find a way to discredit and slander me… believe he will. You deserve to live your own life Anne. Your parents let you down by not healing themselves and depending on YOU from such a young age.
I truly hope you find peace and the freedom to live your own life. By posting, you have shown your courage. Nobody can take away your accomplishments. I have struggled with drugs and alcohol, and depression. I hate my life too. As someone in similar situation, I will tell you what will I do. I used to feel for people like this, feeling guilty — not anymore.
And I think after all this shit my life has become I deserve to be happy once again. Just leave, today if you can! Finish your master and learn how to play a boardgame! And actually enjoy your life. Im 32, divorced and no children. In high school i had a ton of friends and no worries.
Now im constantly bullied by grown women at work, one who happens to be dating my ex husband. I have an awesome job, own my own house and an easy going boyfriend but i cant get over the past.
Instead my husband chose to tell people that i had mental issues. Of course that woild be the only reason for a girl to leave. I never retalliated. We only had mutual friends together which made it very difficult. The girls sided with him and i have 15min guy friend that chose to stay neutral. It hurts to the core that people i considered best friends chose to believe his lies. I went through everything by myself including a miscarriage. I trust no one now and only have 1 friend that i became close with after the separation.
I hate where i live because i constantly have to see my ex husband and his family. I love my job but hate the cattiness of he women here. I feel like and can now relate to high school bullying. Because im tall, blonde, smart and successful now people have to find faults in me. I just want to be invisible. Im just so tired of being miserable. I just want to start life over.
I can work directly with people for about 4 hours before I start having a breakdown and all I want to do is to be left alone so I can sleep all day. I cant even understand how people tolerate relationships… how can you stand to have a person around you so much? Cas, I can relate. Being an introvert and having a myriad of other problems to deal with, have taken a toll on my life too.
I have worked hard at a job for over 14 years, and despite being very good at it, I was never given the promotions that I deserved, and work only part time. I would have left except I had a major health crisis and no family support which prevented me from taking that leap.
That health crisis took about six years out of the prime of my life, the time when people are supposed to be building their careers and their lives. I worry that my life will never get any better, despite how hard I work at improvement every single day.
I think what is especially hard as an introvert, and without familial support, I feel like I am completely alone, without any support or help which creates stress and anxiety on top of an already difficult situation.
I know exactly how you feel.. I hate always changing who I am to seem like a normal person. I enjoy staying indoors and do not like going out all of the time. I hate how we have to pretend to be someone else to fit in. I just work all week and then sit in my apartment all weekend, rinse and repeat.
Ever sence her dad dies she has been pushing me away and it hurts. It hurts really bad. I know it can be difficult, but just hold on!! Anna, not everyone believes in God, nor does God come down and rescue people.
We have to do that ourselves, and the path is not always known. I learnt many years ago that you can only find true happiness when you find yourself and depend only on yourself. Back then I was in control and happy. Somehow I lost my way but if I could do it then I know I have the ability to do it again. I could tell you my story but there is no point because it has all passed. Only you can change it if you care enough about yourself. Write a list of things you hate and target one thing at a time until you have changed it into what you want it to be.
Take each day and do something towards changing what you hate so much. If you hate your job, minimise your work load by finding better ways to manager it, set yourself a daily task at work so you always reach your daily goal then switch off when you leave the job.
I loved your comments…. Maybe thats it…. We want to know there is a brighter future. Best advice on here Louise. Time to work on that list. We might not be able to change everything, but we can work towards changing what we can, and that is how things become better. Thank you, for the inspiration.
I just want to run, drive until I can feel better. I know what can help me, although it seems not to work. I kept looking outside of myself. Then you just made me realize it starts with me. I need to want it. I have to start with ME. I have to divide and conquer. Then tomorrow, a little bit more…. Im My mother died in a car accident 4 years ago. She died when I was almost at the hospital.
My grandparents died 6 and 5 years ago and had dementia. I took care of them because they raised me my siblings didnt care and left me alone. Ive been manipulated and used by my brother for years until i moved far away. My father could careless if I were dead never even sent a card on my birthday.
I spend most of my days at work just to be broke after bills. I have no choice but to live with my sister who lets her disrespectful bum boyfriend do whatever he wants makes me pay rent but he doesnt have to pay for anything. Im shaken up by a bad car accident i was in 5 months ago. As I write this i have a UTI but i cant even afford patient first right now. All I ask is Why? Now his seven and I love him just as much as I do her. I raise her child like his my own bymyself, I clean the mess she leaves behind in our apartment, I make dinner by myself.
Even though for four years she never told me that shit!!!! God that shit still makes me mad! But because for no reason at all I love her so damn much I stayed with her, now on top of everything else I have to worry about that. Dang… are you living my life. But I really think your living my life.
I just hate my life. Im lost. Im 32 and i feel like a failure. I suffer from depression and anxiety and just recently realizing lack of self worth. I dated guys looking for love all my life an never found it.
Just when i thought i did i got pregnant again for the 6th time. Im realizing that he is lazy an he hasnt had a job since we met.
I have no car or license because in someone stole my license an rented a car at some shoddy place an crashed it. State farm is suing me for dollars. I was in school but withdrew an now i cant go back until i pay the loans. Im finally starting to change an it feels like its too late. Ive ruined my credit, my education, my chances at finding a real man. I dont know where to begin in fixing it. Everyone thinks im happy because i smile thru the pain. I used to wish i was dead but now i just wanna live an try to make it better.
I just wish i knew where to start. Ive tried crowdfunding to raise money to start my own company but that only seems to work for big people who already have nice lives an money. Theres no help or sympathy for poverty stricken mothers who need a second chance. I applied for section 8 rent in hopes of saving money but didnt get a ticket due to the fact that it was a lottery style drawing for recipients.
I know a man who got a section 8 voucher who has no kids but i have 5, am on disability and working for minimum wage an stillcant get one. I feel like i need a blessing or a break but realize life doesnt work that way. I might be doomed to live in poverty forever while i watch all my dreams die. I really hate my life.
I feel guilty because my kids are awesome an depend on me. They deserve a better mom who can give them the life they deserve. Growing up isaw life as a fairy tale ending. Now i see the cold reality is i might die poor. Always have to watch my back. I ruin my credit and use all my retirement savings to live.
You know, I used to be scared of not having no one to call when my car broke down. So let me tell you what happend to me. I left abusive boyfriend. But start and never look back, just move forward and doors will open.
I wish you good luck. What do you want to study at college? If you had good results search for scholarships. Remember there is always more then one way to do something. Success leaves clues. Can you apply for government grants to go to college? Call your college of choice and ask for them to help you get started. A year or so after we married, she said we should start trying for a child.
Despite me being reduced to tears, arguments and sadness, we had our son I loved my wife, and if this was the price then so be it.
Finally, after the second child, I was able to get the nerve to argue that I should get a vasectomy. Of yes, and now we have a dog, too. It means I sit in an office on my own all day every day; at home or at weekends I try and play the good dad; I have no friends literally, no friends.
Similar thing for me. I felt like my options were limited or zero when I was young. I wanted to leave my country but circumstances kept pulling me back like a whip around my neck. For the next 18 years your life is over and then you feel old. And no chance really of getting one, with no experience except raising my child and working in menial roles.
I was always so ambitious and my school teachers told me to aim high, but how? Young because I want to live life. Now is it too late? I just want to live life. I have been feeling like I hate my life for a little over a week now.
I can feel myself being so depressed, so much now that I lay down and cry and I have no appetite. I am so unhappy, and the messed up thing is that I am pregnant.
I am 6 and a half months pregnant and I feel so depressed. The other day we were arguing and he even denied his child. It made me feel so bad that I have been thinking about it non stop since then. He supports me financially, but I feel so alone emotionally.
Iam tired of feeling lonely all the time. The people upstairs from me are always having sex, like times a day everyday. Why do I have to be so alone. I am feeling very lonely too.
Why do I have to subject myself to this boring ass life, why does my life lack passion. Also he constantly accuses me that I will return to my ex who I had a 13 year relationship with. I am sick and tired of it. I will be on birth control forever after this. I will take good care of my child but I just want to have some fun and passion in my life again.
I will try to eat for my child inside of me I know it has to remain healthy. I see no end to this depression until I have my child. I have been tied down in two major relationships most of my life, and this one just sucks.
I just want to find that same passion that I had in my first relationship that lasted 13 years. I wish I never left it, I never stopped loving that man and he never stopped loving me. Before I got pregnant I was so happy with my life, I was never depressed ever. Iam usually a very confident woman, and iam sexy too. After that I am confident that I will be fine.
Currently counting down the days, feeling absolutely miserable. I really liked this post. It was very spot on to how I am feeling. I barely even see my dad anymore and he was once my best friend.
He was always there to encourage me and now I have no one. The majority of my days are spent alone either in the car, or sitting at home with our cat. Every week is the same, and every weekend is the same. I forget what it feels like to be excited, happy, passionate, enthusiastic, or motivated. I may only be in high school but I hate my life. My parents are super poor and living with my grandpa for about five years, which my grandma died a few years back While I was home, which still scars me.
My brother is the favorite child and bullies me, and my little sister died six years ago. But honestly I was a mistake to be born, my dad almost always hated me it seems. When I was born the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck and they were unsure if I was going to live.
The next day I dropped four pounds and was living in pain. When I was two and three me and my family moved twice and started losing money. When I was six my mom got pregnant with a baby girl but lost her, and I was still abused. When I was seven, a boys mom accused me of sexually assaulting him, though the boy almost raped me and told his mom that I refused so she spread the rumor, so we moved.
When I was eight I got made fun of and I ran away from home for a week, and returned only because I beat up a child molester who tried to pick me up, so the cops returned me home and told my parents I needed boarding school. It's cathartic. Join in. People who don't know what they want to order after spending 20 minutes waiting in line.
When you get into bed at 11P. The movie Dirty Dancing. When the person you're talking to doesn't tell you that you have something in your teeth. Photos that highlight my at-risk chin. When you can hardly hear the TV show you're watching, but the commercials almost blast your eardrums out. Today, I want you to ask yourself these questions: Does hate have a place in my life? Do I harbor any feelings of hatred toward myself or anyone else? If you do, I implore you to address this negative feeling before it becomes something much more dangerous.
Hate, when left unchecked, will drain your spirit, tarnish your soul and darken your days. Both of these will eat you up inside, so if you find yourself living with hate, perhaps today is a good day for a little wellness housecleaning. Hating Others Hate turned outward is both dangerous and ugly. It can motivate violent crime and damaging behaviors. The recent shooting at the L. Fitness gym in Pennsylvania is a painful reminder of this.
At the heart of all hatred is blame, and this is particularly true for hatred turned outward. This quote from Siddhartha Buddha says it all: Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.
I like this quote because the antidote for hatred is definitely within your grasp. The hand that slaps also has the potential to become the hand that comforts. It all depends how you choose to use that hand. This point is also made in this anecdote, Native American in origin: A grandfather talking to his young grandson tells the boy he has two wolves inside of him, struggling with each other.
The first is the wolf of peace, love and kindness. Getty Images. Matt Stopera. Lisa F.
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